Blank it is.

Last night I dreamt one thousand lies
I could see the dawn through a different set of eyes
There in my slumber passing time
Long live the world resting on its side

I walked the orchard with you
Your hand in mine
In the evergreens drinking wine
I saw the snow fall in black and white
Fram the auburn sky
Last night I lived more than one thousand lives
Not one of them survived

Up through the earth and at dawn I came
I crossed the kingdom through venom pouring rain
In the vacuum of my own brigade
Resurrected to make you mine

Orpheus looked back once
She sailed the underworld
No second chances will be earned
I have returned as a phantom now
To walk the bow and stern
Last night I lived more than one thousand lives
Not one of them survived

If we could do better I know that we would
Maybe admit it now, we're not that good
We keep the needle between zero and one
You play your fiddle, baby, I'll play dumb

Into the pastures of our minds
Goes my nearly beloved and I
Blazing two parallel white lines
Through this broken heart spilt open wide

Time may be on my side
But it's mostly far behind
I was the apple of your eye
Now I'm the boy spinning on a wheel there
Stuck with knives
Last night I lived more than one thousand lives
Not one of them survived

Words and Music by Jakob Dylan

So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place

Chorus:
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella,
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight

She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge

(chorus)

Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

(chorus)

1: The Girl Next Door
2: O__Lucky_Man ( 1973, Lindsay Anderson)
3: Mysterious Skin
4: BladeRunner FinalCut
5: Man Bites Dog
6: Irreversible
7: Elephant
8: A Chinese Torture Chamber Story by Leon
9: I spit on your grave
10: A Clockwork Orange
11: Caligula
12: El Topo
13: Silip

Words I haven't used since a while:

1: Chodhu
2: Chapadganju
3: Chutku
4: Champanganju
5: bhokka chodhu


Things I haven't done since a while:

1: Shaved
2: Groomed myself
3: Hung out with people
4: Spoken about myself
5: Smiled for no reason
6: Laughed for no reason
7: Rode in the rain all the way from the lake

Things I have been doing since a while:

1: Drinking alone
2: Avoiding people
3: Avoiding confrontation
4: Avoiding debates and arguments
5: Riding alone
6: Travelling alone
7: Drinking alone
8: Walking alone
9: Eating alone
10: Edited
11: Thinking
12: Missing


Things I love the most since a while:

1: My black shawl
2: My spartan chappals
3: My waist pouch
4: My isolation
5: My Ipod
6: My Bike
7: Tavern
8: Styx
9: Hard Rock Cafe

Things and words I hate the most right now:

1: People
2: Promises
3: Commitment
4: Hypocrisy
5: Judgmental
6: Trust

Movies I've seen lately:

1: Hellboy 2
2: Baby Blues
3: Young People Fucking
4: Persepolis
5: The Swindle (film by Federico Fellini)
6: A time to love (film by Alex Lui)
7: Into the wild
8: Little Chenier
9: Transsiberian
10: Mutant Chronicles
11: Pan's Labyrinth
12: Black Belt (Japanese)
13: Where in the world is Osama bin laden
14: The Strangers
15: The lost Samaritan