Death haunts me,
leaves a feeling of guilt and pain.
In my anguish I seek for peace.
In a feeling of regret, I pray to god forgive my sins.
In the memory of a past, so remorse filled.
Engulfed by a fire so fierce, I seem to fade like the sun at dusk.
In the distance I see a flame.
A mirage, an illusion I pursue seeking fate which im sure is just a word!

In my solitude burns a desire for something I can't acquire, this is something I don't deserve.
Like a prisoner I surrender, wounded by misery I shed some tears, aghast by the agony I don't deserve.
Day by day the pain rebels and seems with time I'll burn away....

"Battling with myself within. My guilty consuming the good in me; bit by bit. I still fight cursing my demons, begging my stars for even more radiance and power.But with time I seem to learn that I've lost it all, thats not all I've sold even my soul"

Heart beat increase and I feel the blood gush through my veins,
My head pounds and I see nothing but black.
Crystals from eyes are a toxic radiant.
Don’t touch me for I am a hazard.

My feet wobble, and the body shakes.
Trying to keep myself occupied,
I write this with horrifying tunes playing in my head.
I am human and I feel it, this wouldn’t happen otherwise.

Anger and hate, unconditional love and compassion,
All are complimentary when in love.
It’s an oversight and I’m to blame.
I beg for mercy “loneliness I don’t want”.

One wish to be God,
For I would never hurt you again.
A mistake I made and bewail it all.
I am human and I feel it, this wouldn’t happen otherwise.

Losing you I never want.
Looser I will be without you.
One did say “Lady of Light”
It’s veracious for you are my charm, my triumph.

I am not a poet neither a philosopher,
Just another human in love.
There is nothing without you neither I,
For my identity my soul is yours.

I really do love you,
Not for now, but infinite time.
Earnestly I beseech for your love and forgiveness.

Perfect I am not and never will be,
I am not God to love all, but one and that is you.
Lonely again I don’t want to be for these tears would be intoxicated for the rest of time.
I am human and I feel it, this wouldn’t happen otherwise.

-vagueadonis

"It's just my alcoholic mind!"

Church Street it is, park my bike.
Alcohol is what I need.

Holding a bottle I walk, I walk and walk.
My bottle's empty, what do I do??
Just realized i've reached brigade fuel and not drunk yet.

Rum is what I buy, i know im mixing but ohh hell ya,
alcohol is what I need and I'll be numb in a bit.

Then tomorrow comes, I walk again.
Church Street it is, troubled I am!
What do I need?? My feet are sore, im walking again.
I think to myself what is it??

In pain i was; Depression and misery neverending. Thinking of my past so remorse filled.
Walked in a fairy with the refulgence of the moon, so exquisite.
With time she made me smile and every touch of hers, so sensual I feel through the night.

Engrossed in her thoughts, am a captive in the affection expressed.
Envisage the uniting and I grin; looking at the moon above i beg the same.
Awaiting that touch which I long since time.

Aspiration you are and in my dreams will always stay.
Giving in to my addiction which is so overwhelming,
love is what i feel and it makes me feel blessed
cause i know you feel the same.

A fairy I met.
Gentle and calm, with eyes filled with ambition,
A glowing face, like silver shimmers of the stars by the sea.
Beautiful she is with virtues even more.
A ragged feeling and a single touch to change it all.

Far she lives, away from me. Making it harder with time to grapple.
I wonder to myself 'what is time? An illusion? a deception? A semblance?'
For I can't touch it, see it, but strong enough to believe the existence.
I have no proof, but what i feel is substantial though.

Deep within I know its time. Distress and pain, the cause of all.
Not wanting to yet lay my trust with, for I have no choice as I miss you love.
Desirous of being with you I am and sure with time will lay in your arms.

-vagueadonis

My irritation and cause; I really wonder.
Is it really alright to be the one who's tender.

I wish to live a peaceful life.
No pain, No grievance just a normal world.
Shudder away the vision i see and see the killing and moans so loud.
The colour of blood, substantial enough to prove the same.

Misery and guilt, yells and cries, screams of pain.
Tears of Blood and saber's swords, make me cry.
A recurring dream which makes me sick.

Suicidal I come, an avenging eye I look above..
The steep is deep, my vision a trick.
But in my dream,I know not this.

Sweaty palms, I shuffle in pain.
Nervous and desirous to know what lies ahead..
With bloodshot eyes i stare my fear.

I know there's a grave where i retreat.
But I beg my demons its after you so.

Shivers and chills through my spine and i know there's no way out.

A light in dark you've always been
I need you now.. where are't though.
Take my name or humm something for I will know you are here.
Raise your wand or do something for what you possess I do not.

Fairy you've been and saved my soul,
Shouldn't i await for the same again.

I know you've come, and wont let go.
with a screeching call I lift myself.
A force so strong from within, my sight now relatively clear..
I feel your warmth, your arms and the reality,
you save me yet again..

-vagueadonis

Reality is a crutch for people who can't cope with drugs. ~Lily Tomlin


Drugs may be the road to nowhere, but at least they're the scenic route. ~Author Unknown


Half the modern drugs could well be thrown out the window except that the birds might eat them. ~Martin H. Fischer, Fischerisms


A miracle drug is any drug that will do what the label says it will do. ~Eric Hodgins

In the 1960s, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird, and people take Prozac to make it normal. ~Author Unknown


God made pot. Man made beer. Who do you trust? ~Graffiti

Pharmaceutical companies will soon rule the world if we keep letting them believe we are a happy, functional society so long as all the women are on Prozac, all children on Ritalin, and all men on Viagra. ~The Quote Garden